Maybe it's over...

Maybe that interview did have an impact on me. Today I feel the want to talk to him and be with him is far less than it has been before. I like this feeling, I feel more free even though I was never really in a bond. My heart feels like there's no burden of love any more. I wish I really knew what occured to free my heart so I could hass it on to any one having difficulties letting go. The real test will be if he calls or talks to me and I still don't feel any want. I really hope this power to ignore my past feelings lasts. Today I also realized that I don't care at all for the one before him either. I saw him in the hall and didn't have any urges. Not even to talk to him. What happened to me?! This is so strange! Is this what happens when you are really tired or when you finally get over someone? If it's the getting over someone feeling, why did both boys happen on the same day? Maybe I should keep a journal instead of writing on any papter that happens to be conviently around me. I should also go home now...

(Written on the back of my Economics progress report at the end of class)

Here Goes Nothin...

The longer I listen to this interview, the more I feel like it's related directly to me. Almost as if she's talking about me without me even knowing it or experiencing it yet. Watching this interview is going to make my essay easier but my real life harder. These last couple of minutes I've almost been screaming at the computer in agreement because it's exactly how I feel. It IS harder to walk away when he says all the right things and when this has been drug out for so long. I really should end things completely with him, but I really don't want too. It's not nearly as easy as it seems it should be. I hate the fact that she's hit me right on the nose, it just makes me think that much more. And surprisingly, watching this has not made it any easier for me to pick up my phone and tell him that we will never have a chance to be together again. Wow... It's even more surprising how much I can write in 5 minutes with I feel so much emotion about a topic...

Part 1 and 2 of the interview I was watching for my essay in Economics
1 In 3 Interview Part 1
1 In 3 Interview Part 2