Down Hill

Sooo I haven't been on here in like... forever... and there's a lot that I could talk about... but meh... I don't really want to talk about him... but I kinda have to... that's why I have this blog.
So, here goes.
For about a week we were doing great we slept together (denotation not conotation- meaning we actually slept) and got really close. but these past few weeks... I just don't kno what's going on. The first week after our time together he was sick. I still bothered him but we didn't kiss or sleep and we barely hugged. Then he was really tired for a few days and just went to bed early. The last half of last week he was fixing his truck and was dirty and didn't to be around me. These were his words "not tonight. I mean, my hands are all greasy and my armpits and my hair, feel it, it's nasty." I understand that, but by this time we hadn't even hugged in over a week.... All this week so far he's just been acting like I'm just another person he lives next to. I keep my door open some times to see if he'll come in and say hi but he just bypasses me like it's nothing. He's never been this far... well since he's moved back in with us. The only time I go in his room now is when he's playing Black Ops with my parents and he still does nothing. Last time I was in there he didn't even invite me to sit on the bed. :(
I have no idea what's going on with him...  It might be the text I sent him... but I'm not sure. I told him that I'm scared of him. I was scared that he might do the same thing to me as he did to his ex.  Which is completely cut her off. He's not in contact with her at all. He doesn't return phone calls, texts, email, anything. Maybe it's because I said that, that he's doing this and acting this way. Maybe he want's to show me what heartbreak is. Maybe I should just forget all the times he said "I love you" or "I miss you" and all the sweet texts.... No. Not maybe. That's what I'll do. Boy are nothing to cry over... as I've told myself so many times before yet tears still come out. I thought this was different because he was older... maybe they are all the same... I just need to quit trying...
Oh man! I haven't even talked about the tall guy yet! He's pretty much awesome :) buuuut I think he has a girlfriend. Which has me confuzzled because he flirts with me and say's things like "You just made my day" with a smile. I don't kno what's going on with him either... maybe I should find out fo sho if he has a girl... and if he does I kno who it is and I could never break them apart... I could never break any couple apart come to think of it... well maybe one couple but they are already over and I didn't like the girl that much. well now that I mention that, I still don't like her very much... That boy is way gone tho. No need to even include him in this drama.
Before I end this post I must bring you up to date on a few other things that have happened to me...
Like the far away boy... he's become the busy boy and we've barely been talking these past 2 weeks which makes the other 2 situations just a little harder on me... I really hope he becomes not so busy soon... I'm dyin here! Did I tell you that him and his GF broke up? well they did... and a little after that he started saying love u or ily and goodnight and/or sleep well and girly. Every night there was some combination of those... It made me really happy... but now I'm lucky if he even replies to me... Oh and he has another GF now...
I also want to talk about the close one... for some unknown and strange reason I've been wanting to talk to him and see if he still likes me... I've caught him staring at me a couple of times and some times when I look over by him he turns his head toward the teacher... I don't kno what he was looking at but I sit kiddy corner behind him... ish... and the teacher is no where near me... He's usually sitting sideways in his desk but that may also be because he's sitting next to a friend... I just want to kno.... I've also been having thoughts about getting back together with him... It's kind of scary. I just point out his flaws and remind myself why it didn't work the first time... but should I be doing that? I have NO IDEA!!!!
I'm usually the one with all the answers about relationships and whatnot... but now I feel completely pathetic because I'm the one that needs advice. I kno to some people if may be obvious what I should do but... It's not to me because I'm involved with all this... :<

well I should get back to playing oblivion because I finally have the stupid sweetrolls I've been looking for :) anyway... I'll be sure all other posts are NOT this long or anywhere near it... sorry... oh and I'll be sure to post more often so they can't be this long. :) adios....