Confession Time

OK... so there's this boy... and he's like... all wrong... well... He's actually really perfect but (sigh) oh boy... ok so let me start by saying our relationship right now is like a secret affair. No one knows about it. I kinda don't want anyone to know about it. I already can't stand the teasing from my mom and aunt saying that he's my boyfriend (this was more prominent when we were just hanging out a lot (videogames and whatnot)). I'm not sure I could handle anyone else knowing... especially since I'm still 17 and he's... let's just say he's well over 18. Right now we are more of a touchy couple even tho there's a lot of emotion there.
Things happen.
I wonder how I would have approached my previous relationships if I'd had all the experiences I've had this past year...
Speaking of previous relationships... the close one seems to be getting closer... in class these past few days he hasn't been looking thru me but at me... it's kinda strange. Oh and there were still a few open computers left around the room for him to work on but he choose the one next to me... I don't kno what's going on...
Wait. Let me check something.
HAH! Just as I thought. He's single again... :) ...It's not really smile worthy but hey, I was right and that's why I'm smiling. I don't kno how I knew but I just knew...
Anyway.......


I just had a major freak out because I was going to change the names on the side bar to only initials and I realized there's going to be a JM and a JW. Then I started talking to myself about how JM could only wish to be as great as JW but then thought about how wonderful it was when JM was holding me and how odd JW has become. I'm so conflicted... I don't wanna compare those two in my brain for more than .25 seconds ever again.
Nothing new to report on the far away one other than when he got a new number he told me to text it. It still makes me very sad that we don't talk nearly as much as we used to. Cara triste.
GAAHHHHH that's pretty much what the new guy says... but in English. Sad face.
Otay... well I better stop talking now cause a different older guy wants to talk and I told him I wouldn't talk while I blog... if I lose my thoughts... I'm dead. I can't get distracted while I write these things or the entire thing wouldn't make any sense.
Okay
I'm leaving now
I mean now...