I Do Believe He Said That To Me

OHHHH man... So this is my first blog that I didn't actually write down to keep in a journal, so you kno it's all fresh. You kno how I was talking about the far away one, well it turns out he still likes me. Let us call him G.

Me: Just friends
G: Ya
Me: Cause you gots a girly friend and I would/could/should never be her
G: Not should or would. Just cant atm
Me: atm or ever
G: nope
Me: What do you mean?
G: Look. I'm really not leading u on. But I still really like u. And things are kinda shitty on my side of the fence. So if it were ever possible 4 us 2 be legitimatly 2gether. I would
Me: Can I cry now for being such a stupid and stubborn freshman?
G: Absolutely not.

Soo even after 3 years and the fact that we haven't actually seen each other since freshman year. Somehow he still likes me. Unless this is all a lie too and he just likes playing girls which doesn't sound like him... He's the only person that has enough of my heart to actually hurt me enough to cry. I kno this sounds bad because he still has a girlfriend but I want you to kno that after that little conversation I asked what was wrong and he said things are happening between him and his girl so I told him to get some sleep and try to figure it out tomorrow. Things have almost been the same since he revealed what I've been wondering for about a year now. It's not like I flirt with him any more than I did before he had a girlfriend and before he acted like he maybe had a little more interest in me than just friends. Oh hey! I said I was going to talk about the first and the perfect one... should I do that now? Ahhh well you talked me into it. I'll save the first for a whole new entry. But I can describe my perfect partner....

• likes/interests of the most recent
• texting/talking habits of the one with no chance
• the devotion and truth of the first
• the availability of the close one
• the humor of the first and the far away one
• the touch and aggressiveness of the most recent
• the respect and tender care of the first
• looks of the most recent or the far away one... :)
• trustworthiness of the first and the far away

I kno this makes no sense to anyone else but me... maybe if you're lucky then I'll explain all in another entry... but I gots to get to bed so I can go to school for absolutely no reason tomorrow. Seriously. I have food day in Spanish, Academic Tutor, Lit & Film and current events in Government. Yay for a pointless last day before break...