Time To Update

I think it's about time I update this with how I'm feeling. I'll be completely honest like I have been the other times I've written. Starting with the one I'm around every day, every other day for 3 hours straight. I don't necessarily want to be wit him but I do want him to miss me (which is probably a bad thing to say) It makes me feel like trash to watch him look right though me. Almost like we never were... Okay enough about him. Now to the most recent. Somehow I still feel like I could accept him again if he made an effort. The way he's not been talking or even trying to talk to me makes me feel like it was all a lie. All the "I love you"s "I'm falling hard for you" also when he said I really got to him so he quit his bad habits... Why does no one truly care about me? Why does no one act like they miss me at all? There's been suspect of this new boy, but after what happened at his house, there's no way... The bad thing is I've forgiven that and his chances are just as slim as tey were before this event. It's all the smell... He's been acting very different though. Almost like he doesn't really want to talk to me. Next time I'll talk about the first and the far away one and my idea of the perfect one. But for now I have to get some homework done...